Double Edge Sword

Okay so here I sit on a Sat night in a quite house….. yup that’s right my house is actually quiet! No I did not get my kids to bed early they are with their dad. It has been about 4 weeks since they spent a night with him. This feels almost like the first weekend all over again.

I will say it is not as bad because I know tomorrow I will have them home again. But it still hurts.

So I solider on, I am moving next week so packing needs to be done and you know what I just bought myself a ticket to go see Cinderella! So yes it hurts but it is also good to get a break (now I just have to get used to the deafening silence!)

Hope you are having a good weekend!



Divorce and Co-Parenting

Remember the kidsOkay, well the title of this blog no longer applies to my life, I am no longer a housewife. I am just a unemployed stay at home mom that is looking for work. My husband and I are going through divorce, now this decision did not come easy for me. For weeks I fought it and begged for another way, I thought that I could make my husband fall in love with me again and I tried everything, none of which worked.

As the weeks have gone on I have come to accept the reality that I live in, my marriage is over and the awesome family that I once had is now broken. Now my husband and I are getting along and I have no doubt that we will be awesome co-parents, we both love our girls and have a mutual respect for each other and that goes a long way. There is one thing that I have to do to keep this relationship working though, I have to put aside the love that I still have for my husband in order to be a good mom.

What I mean by this is that in order to parent my girls in the best way I need to put my emotions on hold, right now I need to be strong and to have a clear head. Life didn’t turn out the way that I thought it would but I know in the end I will be okay and my girls will be okay to. For me I think it will just take some time, every day gets a little easier. So for now my next step is saying bye to the awesome family of four that we were and saying hi to the awesome family of three that I am now part of.